Every time i went to visit i always turned away so koi, avoiding any contact. They made me nervous, they made me feel out of place. I snuck a peak every now and then, maybe a quick little touch or two but always ran away intimidated before any one could see me. I would never been seen admiring their beauty. But when ever i turned my back i could hear the lipsticks laughing at me. For so long i was so scared of lip color. What looks good on me? What if i look like a beat up hooker? What if i do it wrong, or pick the wrong shade?! The girls online will laugh at me, i'm sure of it(Which you gals haven't, :D) One day, i got over it...